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hello net! ang tagal mong nawala!
fast blog lang. next time na yung full blast entry. busy ako.
right now, very few things could make me feel really really happy. isa na dun yun plaridel. formerly known as top four, now known as the tough four.
pinatibay ng mga karanasan sa plaridel. heartaches and all.
basta. yun.
super ligaya ko. i'm glad i went to the interview for the upcoming homecoming.
i missed them.
kung may isang bagay man akong babalik-balikan at aalalahanin parati, isa na sila yun.
thank you, tough four.
now, back to my own little world na naman.
back to reality.
P.S.
APP, go for the gold in SPO Cup!
No, that's not a set of letters randomly typed on keyboard--that's what we'll be encountering this sem.
Mercy killing please?
NOT! We shall slay the dragon and battle its minions!
ARRRGGGGHHH!!!!!! the horror! the pain! the agonizing pain!!!
ENOUGH!
Ok, so my blockmates' autism and their anxiety are so contagious that I'm also reacting, blogging and thinking this way!
Looovvaaapalooozaaa!
Seriously, I'm thrilled to have this Oh-so-great-lawyer-legend as my professor! I cannot wait...to be eaten alive!
If I'm lucky enough to have survived the upcoming torture genocide this coming week, then I'll major update this blog about my face to face with *thunder and lightning* the great Amurao.
lechugas part one was labeled a for friends only entry.
so anyway, this is lechugas part two.
nao-autistic na naman blockmates ko. well, kasama na ako dun. we are currently searching the net. getting as much information as we could regarding our torturers this sem (ehem...torturers=professors). apparently, we have a killer schedule and a killer set of professors.
can we handle this?
bring it on?
tap out! tap out!
are we still all in this together?
or probably a me, myself and i battle?
lechugas.
someone even twitted that our LEGEND prof eats people alive XD (jabbawockeez!)
so much for the rant.
LECHUGAS - n. a green leafy veagetable.
Ganito kasi yun. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto kung papanong klase ng spoon feeding and pampering ang ginawa sa akin sa aking dating Pamantasan. Magmula sa online enrollment hanggang sa Student council, isama pa ang iba't ibang orgs at hanggang sa emergency moments. Well, wala naman talagang masama sa magandang pagtrato sa amin ng mga Lasallian brother. Laking pasalamat ko nga, sulit naman pala ang mahal na miscellanous fees ng Pamantasan.
Pero, wala lang...it's only now that I've come to appreciate those things. Ngayon na graduate na ako and currently enrolled in another academic institution in pursuance of another degree.
So, ganito kasi yun. 'Twas my first time to actually enroll in Beda (incomparable naman kasi yung first enrollment as freshman nung first sem). So anyway, 'yun nga enrollment ko sa Beda. There was an online registration. So okay yun. Mabilis. Then, the manual enrollment... TADAN!!! ANG BAGAL!!! INABOT AKO NG DALAWANG ORAS!!! HANEP!!! Isipin mo yun. I know that it's not good to compare pero as one of my current blockmate puts it, "the longest time it took me in enrolling in La Salle was 15 minutes."
So syempre, sanay ako sa mabilis at high tech na sistema in my former school. So, after I finished enrolling medyo di na so happy happy ang timpla ko. Diretso ako ngayon sa bahay. To my surprise, another blockmate. This time, someone from UP (oo yung peyups, yung maraming isaw ba :D) posted his appreciation to Beda. Super saya nya because it only took him two hours to enroll. Sa isip-isip ko, hello ano ba?! ang tagal kaya!!!
THEN IT HIT ME...
Super masyado akong na-baby sa La Salle. Lining up for two hours for enrollement got on my nerves, while my blockmate was soooo happy and amazed that he only lined up for two hours. Such difference! Grabe. When I saw how thankful he was, as compared to how devastated I was... nahiya naman daw ako sa sarili ko. *bulang nag-pop bigla*
So there. I am really thankful for the kind of efficiency that my former school provided me with while I was there. However, it's time to live in the real world and try to go with the flow. I should be more patient and appreciative from now on.
Wicked is indeed wicked!
I wonder is the upcoming movie would do justice to the musical, forget the book (HAHA).
Wicked the musical is the "fairytale" version of Wicked the book by Gregory Mcguire.
And although the book did not have a happy ending, still the story of the Wicked Witch of the West is one of the best "background" stories ever told.
With Wicked, it's indeed true that not all great stories end in happily ever after.
- Mood:
calm - Music:For Good - Idina Menzel and Kristin Chenoweth
Then took the other, as just as fair
And both that morning equally lay
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Anyway, so much for trying to convince people about the similarities between Lea and Idina.
At long last, Glee featured a song from my favorite musical, Wicked (which by the way, also stars Idina Menzel)
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!
I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down
Although I am a huge fan of Glee. I could say that I am a bigger fan of Wicked the Musical. Although for most songs, I find Glee's version better, this time, I find WICKED's version of Defying Gravity better.
- Mood:
cheerful
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors--
No--yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever--or else swoon to death
- Mood: relaxed
- Music:Canon in D Major
It goes on and on and on and on"
Tomorrow shall be enrollment day. The day after that, the classes shall resume.
Sleepless nights, bulky books, hundreds of cases lie ahead.
The hardest semester yet is waiting.
"Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time"
Competition is stiff. The real competition is on. It happened during finals week. Powerplay would be heightened.
We'll fight against one another just to get a slot in that quota. A fight against one another. A fight against oneself.
Survival of the fittest.
"Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill"
After this semester those who will carry on with the battle shall be determined.
There's no room for self doubt.
"Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlights, people, living just to find emotion"
This is the time to prove that we're not here for shrill thrill.
We're here to make our dreams reality.
I am here to make my dream a reality.
"Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues"
This is the most crucial semester YET. After this, many might bade goodbye.
Some might realize that this isn't their calling.
While others might continue the battle in other places.
I can forgive failing but I cannot forgive quitting or not even trying.
To quit is to lose without even fighting.
"Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'"
TRUST YOUR HOPES NOT YOUR FEARS.
Countless battles lie ahead. The technique is to never count. Just deal with the harships one after the other.
It's hard. It's not easy. But it's not impossible.
"It goes on and on and on and on"
Tomorrow shall be enrollment day. The day after that, classes shall resume.
I decided to enroll again.
Now I must try to fight the battle. I must get a spot in that quota.
Ora et Labora.
So help me God.
- Location:The Thinking Room
- Mood:
determined - Music:Don't Stop Believing- Glee
"Everything that's in your mind is a belief. The function of the mind is to produce beliefs about what you see, hear, feel. And that's useful. But you keep forgetting that what you think is only a belief. Every time you take any of your thoughts (or someone else's thoughts) as THE truth, you judge And with every judgment you grow farther and farther from God. Stop. Start coming closer to God through acceptance of other, different from yours, perspectives on life."
Ora et Labora works.
I'm soooooo happy!
I was mindlessly browsing the net (as usual), searching for some interesting finds (parang ukay-ukay lang at flea market), then I stumbled upon a twilight related site. So, I decided to browse about the upcoming movie in the twilight saga, New Moon.
THEN...
GRABE!!! NATAWA AKO! SOBRA!!! TAYLOR LAUTNER!!!! Sobrang napatawa ako ng malakas.
Bakit ako natawa?
HE WAS BORN IN 1992!!!
Siopao, Siomai, Sharksfin at Ginisang Gulay!!!
Sobrang natawa ako! He's basically a child! Someone who hasn't reached the age of emancipation yet!
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO THE WORLD? WHY ARE WE "EXPLOITING" OUR CHILDREN LIKE THAT? :))
Seriously, natawa talaga ako. To think that he has a LOT of followers, both girls and gays.
LoL to the max talaga ako kanina.
In a few days enrollment na pero wala pa rin akong matinong desisyon tungkol sa magiging takbo ng buhay pang-akademiko ko sa darating na apat o limang taon. Nalilito pa rin ako. Gusto ko na ayaw ko. Gusto kong i-adopt yung five year curriculum para hindi masyadong ma-cram lahat into four years. Honestly, sa tingin ko if I adopt it mas confident akong mag take ng bar. I mean, I might probably have a better chance of passing or even making it at the top of the list (SANA... HINDI NAMAN MASAMANG MANGARAP!) On the other hand, andito na ako eh.. I've already adopted the four year curriculum. Lilipat pa ba ako?
Super nalilito na ako!!! On Nov. 3 enrollment na... wala pa rin akong matinong desisyon... hayyy...
1. They would rather make endless paragraphs than solve mathematical problems.
= OO!!!!!! a resounding YES!!! YES!! YES!!! Totally absolutely undeniably true for me :P
2. They are the most verbally harassed students & their heart palpitates during class recitation.
= verbally harassed. CHECK. Words I've never dreamt of hearing, saying or even knowing, I heard, said and knew. To top it all, nakakaisang semester pa lang ako sa law school.
= heart palpitates. OO! OO! at OO! Natawag ko na rin lahat ng santo sa buong mundo, dumami bigla ang relihiyon ko. Lahat dinasalan ko.
3. They carry books as heavy as one sack of rice.
= nakakalaki ng muscles. no need to go to the gym :P
4. Their lungs are as if filled with suffocating gas during examinations.
= CARDIAC ARREST. NERVOUS BREAKDOWN. Alam mo yung feeling nasa death row? Yun. Ganon pakiramdam.
5. They create an exclusive world when they talk.
= As much as possible, I try to avoid this. SUPER >________< Syempre kasi when I come home, dapat normal na tao pa rin ako.
6. To them, wearing eyeglasses is virtually inevitable.
= TRUE!!!!!!! Lumabo ang mata ko. SWEAR!!!! Biglaang lumabo ang mata ko but as much as possible, I refrain from wearing eyeglasses. Eeeeewwww!!!!
7. They are coffee shops' regular customers.
= OO. OO. OO. OO. Suki ako sa Starbucks Gateway pero usually take out. HAHAHA.. UBUSAN BAON LAGI.
8. Their neurons are extremely busy.
= Yeah, my neurons are extremely busy figuring out why the hell I entered hell? HAHAHA.. Seriously, if I'm not busy recalling memorized provisions, then I'm recalling the names of the saints for my prayers o kaya I'm figuring out yung solution sa pinaghalu-halong problema sa family law or dun sa pinagpatong-patong na kaso sa crim. HAHAHAHA.
9. To them, quality education takes a lot of sleepless nights and spasms.
= ???????????
10. They are perfectly normal students.
= TRUE!!! Maraming maawrty sa amin! <3
That tweet from a friend just struck me.
I think that it's partly true. Even beyond death, people's influence goes on.
So there really are no endings, there are only cycles. Cycles wherein one thing transforms to another. It's like energy. The first law of thermodynamics states that energy can only be changed from one form to another. It cannot be created nor destroyed. So, something that can't be destroyed means that it cannot be ended, right?
Wala lang. I was just thinking about those people who had gone before me. In a sense, I think that they didn't really end when their physical existence ceased because sometimes one can still feel them.
Happy halloween! HAHAHA.
*****
The song I'm listening to is relaxing. (UN)fortunate souls who stumbled upon this blog, try to listen to this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI4JLa0hb
- Music:Fireflies by Owl City
SEMESTRAL BREAK NA!!!!!!
MY FIRST EVER SEMESTRAL BREAK IN LAW SCHOOL!!!!!!!!
SOBRANG SAYA KOOO!!!!
MALIGAYANG MALIGAYA AKO!!!!
I CAN HONESTLY HONESTLY HONESTLY SAY THAT THIS IS THE BEST FEELING YET.
SWEAR!!!! THIS IS BETTER THAN KNOWING YOU ARE QUALIFIED FOR AN AWARD FOR GRADUATION. THIS IS BETTER THAN KNOWING THAT YOU ARE INDEED INCLUDED IN THE LIST OF GRADUATES. THIS IS BETTER THAN WINNING ANY CONTEST OR WHATSOEVER!!!
THIS IS THE END OF MY FIRST SEMESTER AS A LAW STUDENT.
AFTER COUNTLESS TIMES OF NEAR-QUITTING MOMENTS. AFTER ALL THE BREAKDOWNS. AFTER ALL THOSE TEARS AND ALL-NIGHTERS AND IMPOSSIBLE WORKLOADS.
SA WAKAS!
TO GOD BE THE GLORY.
KUNG HINDI NYA AKO INALALAYAN, SUPER MALAMANG DI AKO TUMAGAL NG GANITO.
NOBODY TOLD ME THAT IT WOULD BE THIS HARD. I WAS SHOCKED SA WAY OF LIVING, STUDYING, ETC..
WHATEVER HAPPENS. WHATEVER THE RESULTS MAY BE, I KNOW AND I BELIEVE THAT SURVIVING THE FIRST SEMESTER OF LAW SCHOOL IS MY GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT YET.
REAL SEMBREAK BEGINS ON MONDAY.
STILL, THE EXAMS ARE OVER.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY.
- Mood:
SUPER HAPPY!
I won't quit but I'll probably drop some subjects next sem in order to make the academic load lighter. I'm still young. Sasabayan ko na mga real batchmates ko. :D
I want to achieve my dream but at the same time I also want to preserve my sanity.So, there.
It might take me a longer time than the usual four years of finishing this, but I'll definitely reach that finish line
at the top of that bar list. :D
Recovering from a failure is the challenge a winner must overcome."
- Mood:
lost
I know that I want this but I don't know if I'm mature enough for this.
I don't even know if I have the capability, the stomach and the strength of heart to keep on doing this.
All I know is, I don't want to quit. But, I've never been this confused in my whole life.
The semester is over but until now, I am still very indecisive about this. I am still doing things half heartedly.
And that makes me sad.
I want to pursue this dream. I want to make it a reality. But am I doing things right? Despite all the time and effort and resources I've given, how come confusion is still around? Wala namang problema. I can handle the workload. I know. Even if I rant always, I know that I can handle the workload and the readings and everything. The problem lies inside me. Ako. Ako yung nalilito.
I envy my classmates who are so decisive about this. Sobrang alam mo yun, kahit na di kataasan yung nakukuha nila sa exams and all, they are still 100 % sure that they want this. Ako, I want this, but there's always a but! And I don't even know where that hesitation is coming from?
Could this be what they call a burnout? Siguro, maling move and pagpasok kaagad-agad sa law school without even taking a year off.
Ewan ko. Sobrang pagod pa ako from all the studying I did in college plus the college drama plus everything.
I'm just so lost right now.
I'm not gonna quit, that's what I've been telling myself. I tell that to myself over and over and over and over but the truth is I am jut hangin on by a thread. Malaki pa ang contribution ng people around me. I feel sad because some of my blockmates already quit. Nabawasan na naman kami. I cannot really blame them... upon the start of this finals week, someone gave up na. Am I next?
Sana hindi. Sana hindi.
I want this. I know that I want this but right now, I just need to tell that to my confuse self.
