"what happened, happened... let it go. " -- anonymous (I just forget the name of the person who said it :D)

I thought that I am all about this new endevour. I thought I was over and that nothing matters in the past. For me, it was all part of history but I was wrong. I didn't expect myself to react the way I reacted when I saw the video presentation for Bayan during the recently concluded newbies' orientation. I didn't come to the orientation but I was able to watch the vid presentation for the section where I used to belong into. Solid three years. You just cannot take that away easily. Two years of  nonstop solid writing for the said section (never akong nagpahinga kahit isang buwan, even when I lost the eb race I still made sure that I was the one to revise the 'for placing' draft) and three months of acting as 'bantay' for the section. It's not easy to let go... wala lang. I met a lot of people in Bayan. I was really touched lang with the presentation. A feeling cannot be explained. My college life was dedicated to the publication. It really was. I don't know why I feel so senti but I just feel this way... I cannot explain it.

More than the people, it was really the cause of the publication that got me. People come and go, but the cause of the publication, it stays. Admittedly, there were times when I just want to stop writing and just focus on my academics and just live my life. Indeed there were times when I simply want to quit, especially those times when things weren't going well. Did you know that I almost lost my chance of being in the honor role during the first term of AY 2008-2009? I almost failed a subject. According to my own computations, I was supposed to fail it. I got the lowest GPA in my entire college life. But at the end of the day, I always tell myself, if I walk away from this cause, then who would stay to finish all of these? Perhaps this attitude or mindset came from the time when I was just a newbie in my dear section, the time of Ate Kring. There were only a few of us who really write and support our editor back then... Wala lang...I was just really touched by the vid presentation lang... seeing the faces of those people who came and who went away, it really is a cycle of life. This year, my dearest section would be celebrating its 10th year anniversary. Hopefully, everything would go well...

I was just really surprised with my reaction. i just need to write it down here.
To the one who made the presentation, if you are reading this, thank you. Thank you for loving the section. Thank you for making me see the faces of the people I worked with. No one was left behind. Every picture was there. Everyone was included, although some did not have their solo pics (but of course, that's understandable, lack of time, the presentation was loonng). I know that, perhaps, you love it more than I do. Sacrifices were made, friendships were ended, but at the end of the day, BAYAN survived.

Love really has ways that logic cannot explain.